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Memory Registry

Positive Significant

- Remaining childhood with Nunnally and Lelouch. Becoming Lelouch’s friend, watching battles, etc. [Picture Dramas, mangas, and various flashbacks.]

- Discussing happiness as glass with Lelouch and Nunnally as children. [referenced in R2; ep7]

- Monkeys going into battle speech. “If you don’t want more deaths, obliterate Britannia!” Seeing Lelouch that day in the ghetto. The woman that comes out that’s not poisonous gas. Saving Lelouch from the gas without any concern for himself. Getting shot for refusing to execute his friend. Being recovered and meeting Lloyd soon after. Introduction to Lancelot. [R1; Ep1-2]

- Catching Euphemia after he's been released from charges and spending the day with her. Getting Arthur. The bullies and having Euphy affirm his purpose in not letting anyone else die. [R1, Ep5]

- Becoming Euphemia's knight. The ceremony where everyone doesn't want to honor him as a knight, but eventually, they all clap. The celebration. [R1; e18]

- Learning after that that he did whatever he could to save himself, thereby costing the operation and his protection of Euphemia. He decides not to be Euphemia's knight anymore. Justifying not being a knight anymore to Cecille. Claiming that he doesn’t want Euphy to end up hating herself. Being talked to by his father’s second-in-command, being berated and running out of energy. “Forget it, if I use my father’s name for this, I’ll never be able to forgive myself!” Having Euphemia order him to love her and become her knight again; working with Zero right after in a strangely happy union. “I’m sorry, Zero, you’re not going to get your wish ... I’m going to hit them first.” Later, becoming her knight again. “I just want to see people smile.” [R1; e20]

- Euphemia announcing the Adminstrative Zone of Japan. Helping her set things up. [R1; ep21]

- Ashford Academy antics (dressing up as a cat, cat events, trying to make a giant pizza, etc.) during the first season, while trying to hide he's the pilot of Lancelot. [various episodes; montage memory]

- Finding Cornelia in the battle. Having Cornelia recognize him as Euphemia's knight and asks him for help. [R1; E25]

- Bittersweet fireworks. Everyone can smile. [Picture drama]

Neutral Significant

- Deciding to join the Britannian army and become an honorary Britannian. [offscreen, implied]

- Chasing after Arthur and bantering with Lelouch about athleticism. Saving Lelouch and being welcomed into the student council. [R1; ep6]

- Being invited to the lake by Shirley. Being told he can't help the hostages because he's an eleven. Cornelia is very discriminating. "I'll do anything, even being a decoy!" Being unable to save all the hostages that include Euphemia, only to have Zero take advantage of the situation and do it himself. The introduction of the Black Knights. [R1; ep8]

- Waking up on Kamine Island. Fishing and other stupid stuff. Telling Kallen that he killed his father and trying to get her to join his side. [R1; ep19]


- Thoughts before he takes to the sky. Punching Lloyd. Going into the fray, angry, looking for Zero. Screaming, irrational. Reflecting back on V.V.’s words. Fighting Kallen. Settle this one on one. Getting stuck at Ashford, with Arthur coming to his rescue. [Picture Drama / R1; ep24-25]

- Being named the Knight of Seven in the Knight of Rounds and the ceremony Understanding that he aims to become the Knight of One. Fighting with Gino at the tournament. [Novel]

- “The one who will kill Zero will be me.” Going to a place that even Schneizel doesn’t even know about. Only Suzaku knows the identity of Lelouch. A temple—a weapon to destroy Gods.The return of Zero. “That would be a serious breach of protocol ...” [R2; ep1-2]

- Nunnally deciding to try and make SAZ again. Surprise. “You surprise me, Nunnally,,.” “Suzaku ... what Euphy tried to accomplish wasn’t wrong, right?” “Euphy wasn’t the one in the wrong.” Is Zero really willing to participate in SAZ? Being attacked, unable to die. Being denied the punishment that his heart desires. Anya signing for him to execute the attempter. Discussing negotiations to exile. A candle for Euphy. [R2; ep7-8]

- Exiling all the Japanese due to them looking like Zero, understanding that he did the right thing, and the promise he makes to Zero. [R2; ep8]

- China arc (pre-wedding ceremony, the chess game, the battle where he captures Kallen, looking at Anya’s pictures, failing to have things work out.) [R2; ep9-11]

- Looking for Lelouch following Shirley’s death and finding the extent of his control. “But if I reported it to his majesty, what would happen to Nunnally?” Not letting Nunnally grab his hand. “Suzaku ... you’re the same as well.” Talking to Anya about her confusing diary. Meeting with Lord Bradley again. Battle of honor. Finding out that they equipped Lancelot with the bomb. Being called by Lelouch. [R2; R15-16]

- Monologue. Running into Nina. “... Killed. It’s a great success Nina.” Choosing to turn on the Emperor. Working with Schneizel. “The only thing that matters ... is the result.” Fighting the Knight of One poorly. [R2; ep20]

- The talk with CC before they go inside the World of C. Stepping inside and witnessing the beginning of the end for Lelouch's parents. [R2; ep21]

- Taking over Brittania with Lelouch. The agreement inside the World of C to work together. Knight of Zero. “I will create more rivers of blood. ... We have lost far too many things.” Fighting while broadcast. The political event, protecting Lelouch—threatening others. [R2; ep21-22]

Negative Significant

- Being captured as a criminal for the murder of Prince Clovis and then being saved from the stay of execution, even if he wanted to die. (“… then I don’t regret leaving this world!”) He refuses Zero's invite to join him. [R1; ep3-4]

- The battle on Narita. Asking Euphy to join the forces. "I beg of you, please order us into combat!" Battle with Kallen! Having CC touch his knightmare and the flood of visions that followed, including a reminder that he killed his father. "No, I didn't mean to! I just—I just—! It was all I could do!" [R1; ep10-11]

- Shirley’s father’s funeral. His rant. Being ordered to destroy the Japanese Liberation Front. "What we're doing—this isn't even a battle anymore." Ignoring the surrender. The Black Knights using the JLF as a decoy. Fighting against Zero. "Are you so set on your goals that you don't see that you're hurting other people?" Fight against Kallen after he beats Zero. Being forced to not follow Kallen as the battle continues. Speaking about Euphy meeting the council. Call from Lelouch. [R1; ep13-14]

- Drawing Lelouch. Playing with Lelouch and Nunnally. Being ordered to kill Toudou, but having it be stopped for him to be rescued. Having to fight Toudou and being reveled as the pilot of Lancelot—plus nearly dying in the process. “Toudou ... I am your enemy.” [R1; e17]

- Working together with Lelouch to save Nunnally. Having Mao reveal that he killed his father to Lelouch. It hits a trauma button. [R1; e16]

- Going in to stop Zero on Shikine Island, only to have Zero cast the Live geass on him. Being there already. Being prepared to die. [R1; e18]

Euphemia massacring the Japanese and running around trying to stop her—only for Zero to shoot her and stop her himself. Being by Euphemia's death bed and her dying. Her last moment of wanting to kill him for being Japanese. Having V.V. explain Geass to him and what it does; deciding to go after Zero at any cost after a call with Lelouch. [R1; e22-23]

- Finding Zero. Shooting off Zero's mask to learn that he's Zero. Self-righteous rant and defeating Zero easily. Selling Lelouch out to Charles to become a Knight of Rounds. [R1; e25]

- After the battle, finding the girl in the rubble, and being named the ogre. [Picture Drama]

- Interrogating Kallen with refrain and deciding that he can't be like Zero to force things out of her. ... Going back to interrogate her again, only to be beat up. [R2; ep14-15]

- Running into Shirley. And then Lelouch. Not being able to trust Lelouch. Working with Lelouch to save Shirley. “Why am I smiling? Lelouch killed Euphy.” A terrorist concern not far away. Learning of Shirley’s death. [R2; ep13-14]

- Asking Lelouch to meet him at the Kururugi Shrine, where they were together as children, so he can ask Lelouch questions. Head stepping. Eventually sees that Lelouch is admitting to lies even if they're lies, and telling him to live the lie. Agreeing to work with him—a brief note of happiness—only for Schneizel and Kanon to show up and make it seem like Suzaku planned this. Being forced to fire FLEIA soon after and the circumstances surrounding that. Being framed. [R2; e17]

- The Second Battle of Tokyo. [R2; ep18]

- Afterward, learning that Nunnally died, as well. The talk with Jeremiah and watching over the scene, being left laughing at the destruction. [R2; ep19]

- Learning that Nunnally is alive, after all, and she's declared herself as their enemy. Being rough on Lelouch for wanting to give up and telling C.C. that he'll be Lelouch's sword, while she must protect him. [R2; 22-23]

- The final battle. Fighting with Lelouch to defuse the missiles. The final battles with Gino and Kallen, appearing to lose—to finally die. [R2; ep23-25]

- A geass is a wish. The final confrontation between Lelouch and Suzaku. The final mistake. [R2; ep25]

Trivial Positive

- Playing with Nunnally and making frog sounds—the dinner with both her and Lelouch. Nunnally taking his hand, being glad that he's all right. Telling Lelouch they shouldn't be seen together at school. [R1; ep6]

- Walking in on the "fight" between Shirley and Kallen, confused. REALLY JUST WANTED TO GO PLAY WITH ARTHUR. Talking about why she likes Lelouch. "You fell in love." Calling Lelouch to see if he likes Shirley, meddling, FALLING ON HER. Arthur causing pain. Cecile helping him with homework, bad food, etc. [R1; ep7]

- Spending time with Euphemia—holding hands, being knightly to her, loving her dumbly no matter what.

- The welcome back Suzaku ceremony. “You’ve moved up in the world.” Rolo asking about not trusting his surveillance. Gino being an idiot. [R2; ep5]

- Not being able to go to Milly’s graduation event. Guilford telling him that he should call, because his present status won’t last forever. Showing up anyway because of a report that things got out of hand. “Now that’s my ex-fiancée. [R2; e12]

Trivial Neutral

- Telling Lelouch that he doesn't need a reason to help people.

- Joining Ashford Academy. Having everyone talk about why an eleven was allowed to come into Ashford. Getting the signal from Lelouch to talk on the roof. Talking! [R1; ep6]

- Being made fun of for crying. Ranting to Lelouch about the Black Knights. They're self-righteous! [R1; ep9]

- Digging for bodies at Narita. Thinking about Zero, CC, and talking to Lloyd. Seeing Shirley. [R1; e12]

- Asking Cecile and Lloyd if he can arrange a meeting with Euphemia. Learning that Lloyd is an Earl. Later, getting his results back about his test, asking if he compares himself to his father. [R1, e15]

- Telling Kallen he intends to persuade her. Other aspects of the school festival until Euphy’s announcement. [R1; ep21]

- Guarding Clovisland. [Picturedrama]

- Montage of Cecile's bad food!

- Fighting in the EU. Giving people a chance to give up, but they don’t. Taking out those that don’t put down their weapons. [R2, ep3]

- The attempt to try and take back Nunnally. Protecting her from Zero. Nunnally crying out for him and not Lelouch. [R2; ep6]

Trivial Negative

- Learning that he’s been disowned by his family for joining the military. [Stated in canon, the actual memory]

- Being invited over for dinner by Lelouch, being told he hasn’t seen him. Talking about acting like Shirley and Lelouch’s fight is normal. Talking to Lelouch about not going to class. “You think he’s off to gamble again?” Getting suspicious about Lelouch’s behavior, and then going to find him. “I thought so. Something’s happened to Nunnally, hasn’t it?” [R1; e16]

- Being discriminated against by the Britannian military. [headcanon, implied]

- Being wrong about Lelouch when he has him talk to Nunnally at his welcome back party. [R2; ep5-6]


Skills

Mundane

- Basic military training (shooting a gun, following orders, basic sword use, etc.)

- Martial arts (kendo, others)

- Superhuman athleticism

- Superamazing skills (knowing how to dodge a bullet, spinkicking, etc.) I want this skill next.

- Using a sword (beyond the basics)

Special

The Live geass.